tomorrow tomorrow tomorrow (again)

meeting with REI tomorrow at 1030, and i hope to know more about the plan for next month after that.

warm thoughts to LJ.

work was ok today. nothing too crazy. very very busy though.

i got into an interesting discussion today on a message board i belong to. basically, someone wrote that a mom told her she wasn't breastfeeding because her baby was lactose intolerant. a bunch of other people wrote in to say how stupid that was. i wrote that maybe she just said that because she didn't want other people to judge her feeding choices. it was interesting because the strongest lactivist on the board feels that not feeding breastmilk is really subpar care. in her mind, there is no reason really not to breastfeed. but her 5mos old son is circumcised. i can't tell you how many posts i've read that say that circ'ing is essentially child abuse. i don't feel that way, but many people do. to them, to circ "without knowing better" is horrific ignorance. to be educated and circ anyway is criminal. also, the lactivist's son has also recieved no vaxes to date. if you ask me, that is the craziest thing of all. how can an educated person make that decision? but i love and respect the lactivist, among other people that have made vastly different choices for their family than i would make for mine. i guess what i'm saying is, i think the family has to figure out what works best for them. and then when they get judged for it--which they will, by someone--they need to say 'thanks for your opinion, but what we are doing is what works best for our family.' and be sure to have a thick skin.

tomorrow, it's only a day away

i leave charleston tomorrow, and i won't be back until the 15th. boo. it is very sad. it was nice to spend these last few weeks here, actually living like a married couple. i also really really like charleston. i'm not sure about SC in general (they have sh*t here named for their late senator Str*m Th*rmond!) but charleston is just lovely.

i'm also going to visit my lovely sister tomorrow. i was very close to canceling the trip after the m/c because my initial vision of the trip was of two sisters, both pregnant, hanging out together. the first meeting of the cousins in utero. and of course, i've had a chem pregnancy and a m/c all during my sister's pregnancy. so while i am filled with joy for her, i was worried that it would just fill me with sadness over my own loss. and, to be honest, i'm not sure how it will go. i tried rescheduling the trip but between the late fee, the f*ck you fee, and the multiple fee fee, it was not feasible. so, i'm on my way out tomorrow and we will see how it goes. i think at least parts of it will go well, because i do really enjoy being around my sis. also, i am very into pregnancy and babies and i like talking about it, even given my own current un-pregnant situation. so i think it will be sad for me, but i still think we'll have a good time.

school starts for me next week. i can't believe it! this break has flown by. i am starting in one clinical next week in a pediatric orthopedic surgeon' office. i am pretty sure she is going to think i'm a dumb a$$. orthopedics is not something i can speak even reasonably intelligently on. maybe i'll call the preceptor and she can recommend a book that i can at least skim before the rotation starts. my other rotation this summer is women's health, and i'm alot more confident about that.

ok, my new favorite site is http://icanhascheezburger.com/ where you will find gems such as this among others. hee-larious.

pixie blonde amphetamine eating nemesis

charleston ultimate is a tough but friendly crowd. there's this one little pixie girl there that i swear must chew amphetamines for breakfast with a side of anabolic steroids and some crack sprinkled on top. she's little, but goddamn is she speedy. it was pickup and thankfully we were on the same team today because defending her is a lesson in humility, with a pinch of misery and a side of why-am-i-doing-this-again? it's nice to share the wealth a little with the other females that show up. the last time i showed up for ultimate there were only a few females that came and it was me against her each time. just not fun, really.

after playing we went to fresh fields. um...yum! i love summer. peaches! cherries! chocolate! a trifecta of tastebud yum.

my opk today, while still negative, was slightly less negative than yesterday. those of you that pee on sticks regularly (none of whom are reading this blog, i'm sure) know what i mean. yesterday was dead negative, today was still negative, but at least the second line showed up. maybe yesterday's ewcm was a portend of an o, maybe next week? or maybe my cervix was exuberant for some reason unknown to me. dreams of zach braff maybe. who knows why a cervix does the things it does?

ooooooof (or, what is the sound of one stomach expanding?)

cl and i just got back from kaminsky's in charleston. that place has absolutely amazing desserts and coffee drinks. i had a nutty irish (yah yah yah) which was coffee, irish creme and amaretto. and whipped cream. mmmmmmmmmm. cl had a kaminsky which is coffee, almond liquor and something else. kahlua? dust from one pixie? emulsified happiness? who knows...that plus the raspberry cheesecake plus the huge greek dinner that preceded it and i'm stuffed up to my eyeballs. all i need is the crane to lift me out of that place and swing me back here.

i'll say if there's one good thing about not being preggers, it's kaminsky's. as shameful as it is to admit, it was one of the first positive things i could come up with after the m/c. what can i say? i guess being overly attached to one's liquor can have an up side :).